I love litsoc 105 and 106

I'm just in from a Litsoc committee night out, and its almost midnight! Imagine Mum, I don't know how you'd respond to me being out and drinking, add it to the list of things I'll never know. All my makeup is still on and I'm sitting in bed delighted because Kyle bought me a milkshake when he came to collect me off the bus, honestly if that's not real love I don't know what is. Myself and Jack are going over to Swindon on Thursday and we're bringing Kyle with us. On one hand I'm nervous because it's a new experience, but on the other hand if they love him as half as much as I do we'll be doing okay.

I love him Mum, and I'm honestly not only saying that because he bought me a milkshake..
I think I love him in a way that I've never loved any one else before.

(I just took my makeup off with aloe vera gel please someone comment and tell me this is okay)

I don't know if you ever had a 'wow' moment with a man, Mum, possibly hopefully Dad at some point but I'll never know. I have every time he meets me off the bus in the dark, every encouragement smile before I step on the scale in tub club, every "you can do it" or "I believe in you" or "how are you feeling?"

I've missed you an awful lot this week and honestly I keep hoping that you'll ring my phone or send a text or I'll hear your soft voice trying to wake me on a Tuesday afternoon after my nap. Even though I know it's silly, these thoughts still consume my daily living.

Aunty Siobhan has become a life coach and obviously I'm her first victim. So yesterday we decided as a collective that I'm going to write a novel. You've heard it here first, this time next year first draft will be finished. It's going to be about me (obviously) because my story is far to big to keep caged I think, but maybe I'm being biased?

I'm going to go to bed because I'll probably end up doing more harm than good I think.

The slightly intoxicated adult wizard child human that you left behind xo


(Also Maeve means "The intoxicating one" so it's probably the best name in the world)

(Also also Siobhan and I decided that one of my goals that I have to reach as a person being life coached is to start calling people out on their bullshit and not letting them walk all over me, so watch out world)

(also I love and cherish everyone on Litsoc 106 (and 105 forever will be in my heart))